Shout Out:

...to my friend Jessica Mann, who is coming back to the glorious Midwest soooooo soon! This girl rocks my world. She is the kind of girl who's gutsy enough to apply for an awesome fellowship, get the money, live in Berlin for a year doing various awesome internships, date a cool German guy named Karsten, move to Munich to be with said boyfriend when he has to move there for a job, find an apartment, a job and a visa in new place (in strict, rule-loving Germany!) and be all around awesome. She hosted me in Berlin twice in situations where I was poor and alone in France and showed me a good time each time. She is so delightfully honest and funny and witty and adorable. I've loved this girl since the first year of college when we were randomly paired as roommates. I remember the first conversation we had on the phone, before we'd even met each other, and we were both like, "dude! this girl is totally like me!"

Come to Minneapolis already and lets go for a walk on the Stone Arch Bridge! Gros bisous!!!!

Feeling My Feelings

Mad. Mad that potential employers won't call me back. Mad that I don't understand my new computer. Mad that I can't stay positive. Mad that I'm spending money and not making it. Mad that I can't be organized and pleasant. Mad that my interpersonal relationships are feeling a bit uneasy. Mad that I feel incompetent. Mad at myself, mad at the world. Mad at about the fact that I'm not really angry, I'm just stagnant and am looking for a driving emotion.

Waaaaaahhhhh!

Unemployed

I have a new computer.  One that actually works with that thing called the internet.  One that actually allows me to update my blog.  Which is what I'm doing.  

How am I doing?  Friends and family ask me this.  I'm not sure what to say.  Because I'm unemployed.  Thus I feel like a non-functioning member of society (not true...I still have to buy stuff, like food).  I have the job of looking for work, sending millions of emails with my resume attached to them, calling employers of all kinds, but I find there's a lot of time to sink into the unemployment stupor.  The one where you watch movies and eat ice cream as a way to escape the reality that you have nothing to do today.  Luckily I have been generally able to avoid the unemployment stupor this time around, by giving myself a daily to-do list and kicking myself out of my apartment as much as possible.  And it all seems to be working okay...except I'm not getting a job.  I'm working on myself, trying to take the time (because I have so much of it anyway) to really listen to my inner voice.  My inner voice that tells me, "I'm bored...".  

What's a girl to do?  Sit in a coffeeshop and update her blog, I guess.  Maybe I'll get adventurous and do something with pictures.  Maybe someone will walk up and give me a job spontaneously.  Maybe I'll...find some ice cream.  Yeah, I can handle that task.